I’m sorry to hear that, but at least you’re honest about your faith. May God reveal His Truth and deep Love to you in a personal way, beyond all your human doubts.
The Bible warns:
“A fool says in his heart ‘There is no God,'”Psalm 14:1
“The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands.”Psalms 19:1 NIV
“For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities–his eternal power and divine nature–have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.”Romans 1:20 NIV
Those of us who understand scientific things have a greater responsibility to handle them honestly:
“Keep that which is committed to your trust, avoiding profane and vain babblings, and oppositions of science falsely so called: Which some professing have erred concerning the faith. Grace be with thee.“I Timothy 6:20
Be careful that you don’t disguise your bias in a scientific camouflage that confuses others who would like to seek the truth:
“Woe to you [experts]! For you have taken away the key of knowledge. You did not enter in yourselves, and those who were entering in you hindered.”Luke 11:52 NIV
Please honestly reconsider investigating the evidence.